Right now my life is utter chaos. People have pitted my best friend and I against each other, and people have gotten hurt. I cannot stand much more of this...especially since my wife and I are completely divided on it all. Home is not a fun place at the moment. Why is everyone so set on ripping apart the best friendship I've ever had?

What is happening???!!!!

Time to embrace change. This whole year has been about change...some good, some not so good. But the secret is to be able to roll with it all I guess. The hardest things I've had to deal with this year, I've had to deal with in silence. That's the hardest...but I am getting through it.

I am loving being with my daughter more than I can say. My girls are the joy of my life. I thank God every day that I have them. Then of course there is my best friend...I am a blessed.

Date:	2007-11-06 08:08
Subject:	Bittersweet
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable

Well today is the 3rd anniversary of the day I married my beautiful wife. I am such a lucky man in so many ways. Unfortunately, it is also the last day I ever spoke to my Mom before she died. :(

I'm trying really hard not to let it ruin the day....but I have to admit, it's hard.

Date:	2007-07-31 10:01
Subject:	Honesty
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

My mom died in November, she was the mom I knew my whole life...I was adopted. Then I found my birthmother...and a month and a half ago, she died too. I keep a good face on for everyone, and I will still do it. But inside, I am really scared. I can't handle losing anyone else close to me...and yet there is sickness looming in my family.

I need to be strong for people, especially my girls (Julie, Jenna, & Kimmie) and my boy...but what happens if I lose anyone else? I am VERY afraid that I will fall apart. I am hanging on by a thread in the face of all this death. When I'm alone, it comes out hard.

You needed to know this I guess.

PS- Update/1:00pm: I can't believe it. After I posted this entry this morning, I just found out that my friend Betty died last night. I am just floored.

Date:	2007-03-25 09:43
Subject:	Daddy Knows Best
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

There she is, my little girl!!! She's now 3 weeks old and being a Dad is so much fun! Ya, I'm full of it...it's awesome, but not all fun. Waking up 6 or 7 times a night is not fun, but it's just for now I am told. I love her to death though! Her name is Jenna.

My brother Eric is now in the Marines. He left for basic on Feb. 5th, 2007. I am so proud of him, I love and miss him very very much. Please pray for our troops.

Kimmie is his girlfriend who is AWESOME!!!! She is missing him too obviously....

My Mom died last week...I am at a complete loss. I'm not supposed to lose her at my age, at her age...not yet. I am walking around, but I am dead inside.

I miss you mom, now and forever.

Date:	2006-06-27 10:49
Subject:	BIG NEWS!!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

I am gonna be a DADDY!!!!! We just found out last week, and I am SO PSYCHED!!!!!! I may turn this into a pregnancy log...hope no one will mind. :)

NOw.....names, time to think about names!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been awhile...."Oklahoma!" was a great success! We got extended, and the press was extremely positive! I've started a Journey Tribute band, which is really taking off in Hollywood! We've packed BB KIngs at Universal Citywalk twice, and now they want us to be a house band which is really cool! Here is a link of our singer and I doing an unplugged version of "Faithfully": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kv2gWSmm5Z4

A lot of other stuff going on, more later!

Happy Birthday to me today!! That is all!! hehehehe! :}

Well, not really....."Oklahoma!" opens tomorrow night, so there's lots of excitement around here!

:)

I haven't updated in ages...not that all that many people are reading. My brother graduated high school, and is getting ready to move out on his own. I'm really proud of the guy he's becoming...let's hope things stay this way. One really hard thing that happened was this past Saturday....I had to put my dog to sleep. It's been harder than I ever thought it would be, but I'll get through it.

On another note, I'm playing Jud Frye in Oklahoma, and I'm loving it!! After being Charlie Brown and the Scarecrow in Wizard of Oz, I finally have a part I can sink my teeth into!! We open March 24th. :)

Work is extreme...that's all I can say. I know I have friends on here involved in the film "High Adventure"...I'd like to know where we are with things because I am waiting to get a gameplan/schedule. Thanks.

I'm also in a Journey Tribute band (I love Journey!)...we are doing our first gig at BB Kings at Universal Citwalk tomorrow night, wish us luck!!!

More soon!

It's been FOREVER since I updated my LJ! I don't have much time, so I will just free-write and hopefully it will make some sense...but please excuse form and content, ha!!

The best thing that happened to me recently didn't even happen to me! My brother graduated high school!! I have worked so hard to keep him in school, and it finally paid off. His grades were incredible too, all A's with one B! It's like he's a different kid! Yesterday, he just got a job at a hot dog stand (hey, it's a start...lol). He will be moving out soon, and that will be cool too. It's been hard for me and Julie, just married and not having our house to ourselves. But soon all will be different again with him out on his own.

Let's see, what else....work has been CRAZY BUSY! I hardly have time for anything. I'm auditioning for "Oklahoma!" today, so wish me luck!

I will update more later.

:)

Date:	2005-05-25 06:18
Subject:	Ummmmm
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful...for my bro
Music:	Mars Volta

So ya, I got hired to play the scarecrow in a $100,000 production of "The Wizard of Oz". It will be in this huge theater: http://www.canyons.edu/info/news/Resources/vec_stage_1.jpg

I know I should be happy, honored, thrilled, etc....but, I went to the read through last night, and I hated my performance. I'm going to have to work hard on this role I guess. Anyway, I just finished producing Julie Brown's ("Earth Girls Are Easy") latest single, "I Want To Be Gay". She is the MC at this years gay pride parade in Hollywood on June 11th. She will be performing the song live, should be fun. She also asked me to do a new version of one of her songs that was a hit in the 80's called, "The Homecoming Queen's Gotta Gun" which I did initially, but wanted to leave the project when I realized the song was pretty graphic, and makes a joke out of school shootings. Anyone who knows me, knows that this subject is a very personal one for me. Anyway, contractually the only option I had was to remove my name. They are still going to use my track I guess. I've also just been hired to score a film called "High Adventure!", more on that later.

I'm giving my brother my Explorer, but I am really worried about it. He and I had a long talk about him getting his life back together, and I have seen alot of evidence that he has learned his lesson after not having it for 7 months. But, I can't shake that feeling that underneath, he feels he is OWED these things. I can't prove that he feels that way, but my concern is that if he does feel this way, then he's learned nothing. I took the car away from him because within 6 months of getting his drivers license, he got 3 tickets!! Obviously, there's a problem. I am hoping and beliving that he will use the car to get his life back on track. Thankfully, he is still in school and will be graduating at the end of the summer. I will have a HUGE party then! I guess my fear about the car is....am I enabling him to end up hurting himself or someone else on the road? Or am I just giving him a 'last chance' to prove himself, and helping him get his life together?

Still no baby. :( We are doing all kinds of crap this month too. She's doing hormone injections, all this stuff. Why is it so hard to have a baby when you REALLY want one?

Date:	2005-04-26 21:38
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	Guys And Dolls

I'm very happy with my life right now. Nothing is perfect, but things really feel good. I have the greatest friends online and off, I have learned so much this past year...and gained so many blessings, it's impossible for me to feel bad about anything at this moment. We still don't have a baby yet, but I'm thinking positive. I know how annoying overly happy people can be....but I cannot help myself. I want to share it, and spread it around!!

I hope everyone else is doing good too, I am always here for my friends....remember that.

Date:	2005-04-18 05:19
Subject:	New Week, New Friends, Yay
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	just got the new Garbage CD

So this weekend was pretty cool. I got some (much needed) time with my wife, and made a new friend :)....this week, I'm working with a guy named Xandy Barry who just released his first CD. You can check out his video here: http://www.kgb-la.com/xandy.htm ....(make sure you let it load first). Other than that, The Tony Danza Show is still on the air, which is good for me. Yay!!

Scotty, if you're out there....you rock. :)

Off to the gym now after I wake up a little more...

Date:	2005-04-14 10:20
Subject:	Baby Blues
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

Well, today was the day to find out whether or not I'm going to be a Daddy. After hormone shots, calculated natural tries, and artificial insemenation....no go. :( I guess maybe next month will be better.

Oh, and Scotty hates me now...he told me to BURN. :( :( :(

Auditions are coming up for "The Wizard of Oz".....I'm thinking about going for it. What do you think Scotty, since you're the only one who reads my journal?

It's a 900 seat theatre!!

Date:	2005-03-25 06:40
Subject:	Don't Stop Believin
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful
Music:	JOURNEY

Just a small town girl, livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on


Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night


Working hard to get my fill,
everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on


(chorus)


Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlight people

Date:	2005-01-22 08:18
Subject:	Bro
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	nothing.

I haven't been on much. My brother has left my house because I don't want him doing any drugs. I guess he's making his choice, and I need to stick to my guns that he has to work and go to school and not be involved with drugs here.

But it's so hard because I love my brother. This is a hellish time. Sorry....

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/burgerking.html

Date:	2005-01-06 21:54
Subject:	Hanky Boy
Security:	Public
Mood:	loved
Music:	Hank The Dog

Not much to say right now...just, I love my dog. I don't know how to post pics up here, so here's a link to his pic:

http://www.22centsolution.com/images/hankyfixed.jpg

I love my dog Hank!